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Words are sounds that we make which have no meaning to it until we define what it means with our emotions and thoughts. Our mind and heart give words it true meanings.

Today I realize two words that weight the most in any language and they “Sorry” and “Love”. You know how people say that those words are throwing around a lot and they are abused a lot. Well yeah because people say them with no meaning and no heart. I feel like both words are massive words.

Let start with “Sorry”, when you say sorry and because you really feel bad for what you have done and really one that person to forgive you. It is really hard to say it. I mean you can’t just say it without defining it meaning and really willing to give in and open up who you are to the person. You said it with your heart shown to them like literally cutting open your lungs and showing them your heart. And as you said it you are carrying and holding on to a heavy wright on your back and it build up. It is really to say it and not care about what you said or how the other person response is. But it is really hard to say it when you really mean it because you really have to find and give meaning to the words.

“Love”, I don’t know how people feel when they say the word love such as “I Love You”. Some might said it when they feel it and I do that too but I notice that it is harder for me to say it when I feel it. I feel like the word itself have meaning in it and when it have meaning in it, it have weight with it. Love is a really, really, really massive word and it has a massive force. I feel like when I say it I really feel like I have to carry it. Meaning I can just say it and leave it there hanging. I really feel like when I say it, I meant it, I will carry it with me for the rest of my life. I guess what I mean is carrying the responsibility and the word that I said to people. This is why I am really careful of using that word because I feel like once I said it I really meant it and will keep my word of it. Honestly, I do abuse it sometime but I honestly rarely do because I say it to my friend because I really love them but I say it in a playful way.

I feel like “Sorry” and “Love” is massive words and words that are powerful when it is given meaning to it. And it needs two persons to carry it and not just one person alone. Because once, the two persons carry the word together the words become mass less but yet still have meaning to it.

“Hate” on the other hand is not a strong word. It is a strong feeling or emotions and yes it does weight a lot and are really painful to hold onto but it is not a massive word because it is a meaningless word. And even if it is a massive word, we can always, need to let it go and guess what it is ok to let it go. :)

It is every interesting that every Chinese Religion Gods and Goddesses have stories to them. Stories of how they become that Gods or Goddesses and where their name come from. Sadly I only know few of them. Honestly, I don’t know if they really become Gods but I know for a fact that they were all once human beings.

I am not a religious person but I am a spiritual person. I don’t follow the religion I follow the philosophy of life and this doesn’t mean that I follow ever rules in the book. I only follow what is humanity, moral, right for my heart and self. The rest are just words in books that people wrote years ago when they were alive during their time. I remember a Buddha said this (don’t know which one) “Don’t be too focus in the words in the book” meaning read the book but just live your life.

Honestly, I love philosophy quotes and life lesson stories but so what? Sometime and not everything will fill with everything in philosophy. I love knowledge but we can’t always live our life with just knowledge because not everything in life is base on that. Wouldn’t it be boring if life is just be base on knowledge? There is so many things the make life so beautiful and we really need our mind and heart to be one to see and understand life beauty.

(Random midnight thoughts :))

HAHAHA Ok maybe I don’t fucking see everything…

But it ok I will end up finding out anyways… :P

But I realize something, people are really good at acting fake or sometime just putting a mask on. Even in a group that they might hate or dislike each other they would still act like nothing is going on. The fun part is seeing through those layers and layers of skins and seeing the truth person inside them. But it ok, the more that you are around me the more I see of you. The more you are around me the less you can hide in front of me. Let see who review more of their heart and mind me or you? >:)